Kim Kardashian spoke about bodyshaming during her first pregnancy: "It killed my self-esteem"

Eight years ago, Kim Kardashian became a mother for the first time — the TV star gave birth to a daughter North from her now ex-husband Kanye West. But, as it turned out, the pregnancy had an extremely hard impact on her morally. 40-year-old Kim admitted that she faced bodyshaming when she was pregnant with her first daughter. In the podcast of Kristen Bell and Monica Padman, she said that this pregnancy experience killed her self-esteem, as the media were extremely cruel to her.

I hated being pregnant. I hated the way I felt, the way I looked,

"I'm sorry," she said.

Kim admitted that after learning about the pregnancy, she expected something completely different, as she relied on the experience of her mother Kris Jenner and older sister Kourtney Kardashian — their pregnancies proceeded without problems, and the birth was easy.

She noted that the way the media wrote about her pregnancy at that time, she was very traumatized.

It was crazy. It killed my self-esteem. I can't believe it was acceptable and seemed normal. I was sitting at home and crying,

"I'm sorry," she said.

Kim struggled with medical issues during her first two pregnancies. This subsequently led to the fact that she and Kanye West twice turned to the services of surrogate mothers, who gave birth to their daughter Chicago and son Psalm.

I had preeclampsia, and I didn't know about it. Because of this, my legs and face were swollen. I had to give birth six weeks ahead of schedule, and the birth was an emergency. And then, with both children, I had an increment of the placenta. It was crazy,

"I'm sorry," she said.

After the first birth, her life did not become easier — she admitted that she was stressed because of her body and was even afraid to go to a public gym.

I didn't want people to watch me trying to lose weight. During pregnancy, I gained 31 kilograms. I was sitting in my mother's garage, and in the summer it was 45 degrees in Calabasas. My daughter was in a wheelchair, and I just trained in the garage and did everything I could while I had the strength. It changed me as a person,

— she remembered.

Kim said that this experience made her rethink what and how she showed on social networks, as she realized how cruel the public can be. Kim added that now she takes a more balanced approach to publications in social networks, realizing that people may find some posts inappropriate.

There's definitely a side of me that says, " Be who you want to be and publish what you want to publish. But there is another side of me that says: "I'm a mom, I'm 40, I need to cool down",

— she concluded.